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R.I.P. Steffi

Steffi, our beloved little fluff ball, is gone now.

Originally we had planned to make our decision tomorrow, but we realized very quickly that she wasn't going to get any better. In fact, her condition got worse and worse very quickly during the past few days. So bad that we decided to end her suffering today, not tomorrow. After all, why should she suffer longer than she has to?

So we went to put her to sleep this evening. Afterwards, we buried her in our backyard wrapped in her favourite blanket, together with her favourite toys. She looked so peaceful, as if she was merely sleeping. We even made a little cross for her grave.

It was a very emotional experience and we all cried a lot. Even the vet looked like he was going to cry when he put her to sleep, but then he left the room to give us some privacy. But I know that we made the right decision - she had a happy life, a very peaceful death, we all had the opportunity to properly say goodbye, and now she doesn't feel any pain anymore.

And I'm so thankful for all the years we got to spend with our fluffy little angel.

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badly_knitted
Jul. 31st, 2014 09:22 pm (UTC)
*hugs* You have a good vet, like mine. They really care and understand how hard it is to say goodbye to a beloved friend, even when you know it's the right thing to do.

Rest in peace, Steffi.

Thinking of you.
awieatti
Aug. 2nd, 2014 12:37 am (UTC)
Thank you, it really means a lot to me! I miss her so much :'(
badly_knitted
Aug. 2nd, 2014 10:49 am (UTC)
I still miss Misty, my rabbit *hugs*

But both he and Steffi are at peace now. We made the right choice for them, even though it hurts us.
brit_columbia
Aug. 1st, 2014 02:50 am (UTC)
Your experience sounds so much like mine, right down to the little cross in the backyard. But I couldn't be there when Fluffy was buried. I was too emotional. My husband and father did it. My husband said the same thing you did, that it looked like Fluff was just sleeping.

And it's good that you feel gratitude. That's very important. I still miss Fluffy a lot and it helps me to feel grateful for the eight years I had with him.

awieatti
Aug. 1st, 2014 08:50 pm (UTC)
It always sounds so cheesy saying that someone who is dead looks like they are just sleeping, but it's exactly like that. Somehow I had expected Steffi to look more... well, dead. Instead, it felt like she could wake up any second (and of course it didn't help that she was still warm, either). But I think it's a good thing that our loved ones do not suddenly look gruesome and different when they are dead, but as peaceful and normal as always.

We had her for "only" 6 years, but that was one third of my life, so it felt much longer. I miss her so much!! :(
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