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[Relationshit and IMPORTANT update news]He broke everything off with me. Telling me he already found his love now, thanking me for the nice conversations and saying that he was sorry if he sounds like an ass now.

So I guess I can't even be angry at him.

But I still am, just a little bit. Maybe because this is already the second time the exact same thing happened to me. With the only difference that last time, I didn't care so much about the guy. And I can't help but feel a bit cheated now. After all, when a guy already knows a girl / girls that he is about to fall in love with, why would he date me to begin with? Shouldn't he make sure to be certain about the true nature of his relationships before he gives another person false hopes?

I don't know, maybe I just need someone to blame :(

But I just feel so frustrated and disappointed! I really thought he could have been the one for me. And shit, I never had a real boyfriend, a real kiss (with real feelings and stuff, I mean), real love, real sex, and now I can't even have a real break-up! Although it certainly feels like one. There, I said it. And I KNOW I'm only 18 (almost 19) but I feel like I'm missing out!

Life really sucks sometimes :(





Talking about bad news - I'm really sorry but I won't be able to post the longer FAKE fanfic I promised you, at least not anytime soon. If I got your hopes up, I'm really, really sorry about that. (Didn't I just talk about giving someone false hopes? Now I feel like a hypocrite...). I'd love to write it, really, but a) real life is more important and I'm going to be very busy soon, and b) when I have the time and oppertunity to write, I want to work. on. my. original work.

Maybe I will still write the fanfic someday, I don't know yet. It wasn't THAT much of a brilliant idea, anyways. But you probably know that feeling when you have a new story idea and you're totally enthusiastic about it for a few days, and then your enthusiasm fades and you're not that excited about it anymore. Again, I'm REALLY sorry about announcing something that I will maybe never write. (Just so you know, it would have been a silly little story about a nice couple trying to adopt Dee as a child, with Dee of course protesting, running away from his new "home" and having to overcome some obstacles as he makes his way back to the orphanage. And that was it.)








Now that I got that out - there's just a little piece of more bad news left. Yay, huh?

To make it short: I'm soon going to stop doing my daily drabbles. I really enjoy them, and I hope you do too, but as I mentioned above, real life and my original writing are more important right now. But this will not mean I will stop writing drabbles altogether (at least I hope so). I'll try to write one every once in a while, maybe for the fan-flashworks community and definitely for the new FAKE drabble community that badly_knitted and I are about to set up, which would have a new prompt every two weeks or so. (I'm not going to give that project up completely!)

But before I stop, I'm going to complete my #150 of daily drabbles. Just to give this a feeling of closure. So you still have 12 daily drabbles to look forward to! :)









Thanks for reading, everyone. I know this was a heavy load of bad news, but there was no helping it, so I hope you forgive me! I love you all, I really do!

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badly_knitted
Jul. 27th, 2014 10:46 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Life (bad bits included) has to take precedence. I don't blame you for feeling cheated, guys need to get things figured out before they get involved with someone. Vague, I know, but I've had guys in the past that just left me thinking WTF was that?

I hope there WILL still be occasional drabbles, but good luck with the original stories. I'll try to get my head in the game after next week (life stuff) is out of the way, and work on the tags list etc. I'll let you know as soon as I have someething fugured out so you can take a look and see what needs adding. I'm bound to miss something, lol!

Would have been a cute fic, maybe it'll happen one day and maybe not. Not all ideas get written.
awieatti
Jul. 28th, 2014 07:15 pm (UTC)
Men are strange creatures sometimes! But so are women, I suppose. Well, at least he told me soon-ish enough before I REALLY fell in love with him...

Take your time, I won't have an internet connection from the third until the 23rd of August, anyways ;) But I'm looking forward to our community! ^_^
badly_knitted
Jul. 28th, 2014 09:03 pm (UTC)
You'll have plenty to look forward to when you get back, I hope!

Men are indeed strange creatures. My first boyfriend kept telling me he loved me, but when I said it back, he broke up with me, lol!
awieatti
Jul. 29th, 2014 08:41 pm (UTC)
What?! That's really weird! And men always say that WE are complicated! xD
May I ask how and where you met your current boyfriend? (only if that question is not too personal, of course!) Because apparently I'm not meeting the right people :(
badly_knitted
Jul. 29th, 2014 08:52 pm (UTC)
The one I have now, I met at the skating rink. I've had him for 30 or so years now though, maybe the ones at skating rinks these days aren't such good quality ;)

To be honest, we're more just friends these days, because of my health issues I can't go places, so it's not much fun for him. We're both the wrong side of 50 anyway.
awieatti
Jul. 29th, 2014 11:05 pm (UTC)
Oh, I guess I should start checking out all skating rinks, then! ;D Just kidding. At first I need a break from dating, anyway.

Aw that sucks :( But at least you're still friends and getting along! (30 years, that's a really long time! I guess it's a good sign that you're not yet sick of each other ;D )
badly_knitted
Jul. 29th, 2014 11:24 pm (UTC)
Well, I guess it helps that we don't live together ;)

I was 18 when we met, so it's about 34 years I guess. My parents didn't stay married that long!
awieatti
Aug. 1st, 2014 09:10 pm (UTC)
It's awesome that there are still relationships that last for such a long time. Especially when they started at such a young age! :)
badly_knitted
Aug. 1st, 2014 09:27 pm (UTC)
I think if we'd lived together it woulddn't have lasted, lol! My parents only managed 25 years. (Actually, I'm amazed Mum put up with Dad that long. I loved my Dad, but I wasn't blind. He ran off with an older woman. I felt rather sorry for her. I wonder if he cheated on her too.)

You'll find someone worthy of you, just be patient, there are still good ones out there.
brit_columbia
Jul. 29th, 2014 08:13 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about the confusing break-up behavior of the guy you liked. But I agree-- it's so much better that it happened now rather than when your feelings were much deeper.

And on the other thing, much as I enjoy your daily drabbles, I think you're doing the right thing by cutting back. (You knew I was going to say that, didn't you?)

In the financial world they say the only way to save money is to pay yourself first. Same with writing. Put yourself first. Think of your future fans who will be so happy you wrote your books for them to enjoy!
awieatti
Jul. 29th, 2014 08:38 pm (UTC)
Yeah, that's life, I guess. *sigh* I'm really glad we're going to Iceland this Sunday so I can get away from all the shitty things that are happening right now. First the "break-up", now Steffi is dying, and all in all my life is just so unsteady at the moment... I didn't even celebrate my birthday today, just got a few presents from my family. But, well, it can only get better from here.

A big part of my renewed writing motivation came from you, so I can't thank you enough for your messages! I finally wrote something on my original story again today (the last weeks were mainly notes and editing) and cut out huge parts that I probably won't need. It feels so good to be back on track! :)
brit_columbia
Jul. 31st, 2014 04:52 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you've got your motivation back. We've both got to keep our eye on the prize!

Have a great time in Iceland. I want to hear all about it, so I hope you'll post some of your observations.
awieatti
Aug. 1st, 2014 08:58 pm (UTC)
Definitely! I'm so sad that I won't be writing anything in Iceland (I'm not taking my laptop with me), but I probably won't have the time for writing anyways xD

Thank you! I wish I could post a little report once or twice a week, but internet is probably very expensive and slow up there, so you won't hear from me for the whole three weeks - but I'll definitely post something about our trip once we get back :)
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